Oh gosh it slipped my mind to post this earlier. I usually post this on the first of August every year to give my friends enough time because I don’t have an SO that they can ask for ideas LOL.
But maybe this was me subconsciously being in denial about the fact that I’m turning 40 in a few weeks. Ugh.
I really thought I was gonna be okay about this, though I was afraid that I would spiral into a depression because that was what happened before I turned 30.
Well I guess I am starting to spiral. It started when a friend brought up that he saw a guy in my past who then asked the dreaded question about why I’m still single.
Why am I single indeed? At (almost) 40?!?
Spiralling.
Then I interviewed my fellow 40 year old friends for a podcast episode which I plan to call: “This is 40: Expectations vs Reality.”
I thought it was going to be an episode highlighting the perks of being 40. That there is truth to the saying that life begins at 40.
But none of my interviewees seemed truly happy about being 40.
No, life doesn’t begin at 40 was one conclusion. Life began in our 20s and we had the best time of our lives then, and now it’s over. That’s why we always love to talk about the good old days everytime we get together with old friends. And why it aches so palpably everytime we see pictures or videos of our young, thin, beautiful selves.
Spiralling.
And so one night, in a fit of depression-fueled madness, I booked a hair appointment at Toni and Guy and then a room at the Rosewood Hotel for the week of my birthday. Both quite pricey stuff because hey, 40 is a big deal right? I had also taken a vacation leave for that whole week because I haven’t had a week-long vacation leave since this damn pandemic started. But I don’t even have things to do for that whole week. Maybe I’ll just lay in bed and cry for days.
Spiralling.
I guess what I really wish for is to not feel overwhelmingly lonely and depressed and freaked out on my birthday.
But since you can’t buy that from a shop, and you really want to buy me a gift, then just get me jewelry – dangling earrings or a necklace. Or a watch. Or anything that could last a long time.
As for myself, I will think of buying something for me, maybe one item on this list?
- Alexander McQueen oversized sneakers
Brown leather boots with a chunky soleI bought a pair of light brown Ash boots- Cashmere camel coat
Designer wallet on chainI bought a YSL- Fendi cashmere FF logo scarf
Haha come home and visit family and friends! Would be a great way to spend a “milestone” birthday hahaha….although avoid the nosey Tito’s and Tita’s who will pester you about marriage hahaha. Advanced happy birthday Dee!
Deeeee! Glee here! Belated happy birthday! The good thing about being older is being wiser and having more money to spend! hahahah! You are not alone in looking back at the good ol’ days. I think the pandemic just really aggravated the sense of “losing time” for all of us. rawr.
Thanks! Yes indeed, the pandemic hurt our time by a lot.